Today’s card is The Page of Cups. The home of expression. And so instead of my morning pages, I sat at my desk with my coffee getting cold, reading poetry.
salt. by nayyirah waheed. I read the whole book. I feel thankful for being invited into an experience that is not my own. I feel thankful for her centering of Blackness. I feel thankful for the poems that are about me, too.
‘if i write
what you may feel
but cannot say.
it does not
me a poet.
it makes me a bridge.
i am humbled
to assist your heart in speaking.
I am thankful for this book. This, and another book of her poetry, Nejma, gifted to me years ago by someone who was a metamour and is now a good friend.
I think about the Page of Cups. Cristy C. Road says, ‘Page of Cups learned to speak in poetry through both suffering and living life to its fullest… They ask you to take your gut reaction and your infatuations seriously. These are your gifts. Your raw talents. Now prepared for battle.’
And I read my signed copy of Pansy, by Andrea Gibson. Crying, as I always do, about halfway through, when the poems spoken under my breath have pulled the emotion out of me like a chemical reaction. This is not my favourite of Andrea Gibson’s poetry books (that is Pole Dancing to Gospel Hymns) but today it felt like the right one. It is an ‘Angels of the Get Through’ kind of day. It is a ‘Letter to White Queers, a Letter to Myself’ kind of day.
So, beloved tarot companions.
What poetry speaks its way through your heart today?
When did you learn to tell your own stories?
Who has been a bridge for you, who has helped assist your heart in speaking?
Today, consider this card an invitation. Seek out poetry that speaks to you. Find your story, or a story that your heart needs to hear.
The Page of Cups zine is almost ready. Since I’ve pulled this card again, and found it so rich and meaningful, I’m going to open up submissions to the zine for the rest of this week.
Send your 500-ish word story, on the loose theme of playfulness, curiosity, and storytelling to firstname.lastname@example.org.